I thought it was the dish that ran away with the spoons?

Well, in the nursery rhyme it is but for me it's POTS!

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And this for an explanation of SPOONS

Thursday, 15 July 2010

To some this would seem ludicrous...

But I KNOW my potsy and spoony friends will 'get it'.

On Saturday (the day of the ball) I was having a pretty blah day. I woke up feeling really tired and 'out of it' and knew getting out of bed was going to be hard on my body. I was also pissed off because I'd been feeling really good for about a week, then woke up feeling like THAT the day of my 'big event of the year'! I took a shower (to get it out of the way because it tends to wipe me out even when I feel good), had lunch and went back to bed until it was time to get ready.

Then I had to drive to my bfs, and I was coming up the drive in my tight black dress, with my shiny just washed hair with added SHINE SERUM and my eye makeup done beautifully (I rarely bother with makeup so when I do, I make it really emphasise my eyes) and the very first thing my bf said to me was:

"You look tired."

and inside my reactions was WOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOO! YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! HALLELUJAH!!!!! Bells ringing, birdies tweeting, little men jumping in the air with fists of triumph YESSSSSSSS!!!

Because I thought to myself, FINALLY! Someone can SEE I am having a bad day! Someone can SEE THROUGH THE VENEER and recognise how I really feel!

I think what it was was my demeanour more than anything, because I was feeling weak and dizzy and was tottering in heels trying to carry a heavy bag, so I was moving really slowwwly and carefully, and my bf said I looked 'really wary' walking up the drive.

Still, it's only ever been my Mum and my friend M. who have ever recognised that I don't look so good (M recognised it when we went out at Christmas- she told me I looked really tired and she said- in her exuberant, foreign accented style- I never seen you look this way, so tired! Ahh, she was really worried and mother hen-ish that night lol). M also noticed I was looking better at the ball (despite it being a bad day, I'm still loads better than I was a few months ago) and she pointed out that my eyes didn't have the dark circles under them anymore.

My bf however likes to take the credit (jokingly) for many of my symptoms- my racing heart is because I'm excited to see him, my dizziness is because I'm positively swooning, and my rosy cheeks (that I now have since taking florinef and generally doing better) are because I'm GETTING SOME!

hehehe, he makes me laugh.

But only a potsy or spoony will really understand that feeling of elation I had when he told me I looked tired. It was better than if he'd told me I looked stunningly fabulous and made him want to ravish me.

"You look tired". Well I'd have never expected THOSE '3 little words' to be the words I was most excited to hear from him. ;)

1 comment:

  1. Its so true bc no one ever notices! the only person who can see it in me is my social worker bc she used to be a nurse. she says i go from normal gastly pale lol to grey and it just washes over me and i instantly look exhausted