I defintely want to be a learning mentor. It sounds excellent!
I don't however want to do a 3 year degree. I already have a degree, even though it's in an irrelevant subject. But because I do have that, I can do a masters degree (1 year) in Learning and Teaching :-0 ! It won't cost as much money (or TIME! which is just as precious lol).
In order to do so, I'll need a job in a school. Unfortunately, the spanner in the works is that learning mentor jobs are hard to come by. My friend is one, and she was a TA first for a while- so here's my plan of action:
Complete my diploma in childcare and education. Set up a time when I can visit my friend in her school (maybe one day a week or something) where she works as a learning mentor, and work shadow her. That way, I can put down on my CV that I've had some experience as a learning mentor assistant.
Get a job as a TA. Going to ask the headteacher at the school where I've volunteered the past 5+ years if she would consider creating a vacancy for me. If not, I'll do everything I can to find one somewhere else.
Apply for the MA- I think it's a working practice based course so you need to have a job in a school first, so I might not be able to apply until I have a job, but fingers crossed if the head is willing to give me one, I might get one soon or if not this school year, I could at least say I WILL have one by September.
Keep my eyes open for a learning mentor position. If I'm doing an MA I will stand out above other candidates so give myself more chance of getting the role. Plus, the learning I will do whilst doing the MA will add to my skills and confidence.
I might be 27, it might have taken me a LONG time, it might have been a rocky road of fear, self doubt, sickness and indecision but finally, now AT LAST I know what I want to do. So now I can start making the steps to get there and DO IT!! :D
Wednesday, 31 March 2010
I can't believe I'm even contemplating this...
Okay so one of my biggest regrets in life is having been too ill back when I was 19 to get the sort of degree that would have led to a good job. Back then, I didn't even know what I wanted to do!
Recently I've been nurturing a desire to work with children, but I'd been considering a role such as TA. However, there isn't much chance for career progression with that, and being an optimistic person, I like to think that as I get a better handle on my health issues, I could progress up the career ladder. I don't want to be a teacher (though I could have been as I did get accepted a couple of years ago to do a PGCE- a years qualification for those who have a degree [mine is in rather a stupid, useless field]) but I would like to have some responsibilities and challenge. Maybe I am crazy, but I have let my health and my fears hold me back for so long... I'm starting to sense a rebellion coming- my inner spirit fighting back!
I saw on a job description of learning mentor a degree in learning, development and support that sounds interesting. I think being a learning mentor would be a great role for me. It's all about supporting children with learning needs OR about working with gifted and talented to push them... basically it's doing what I love, working with young children to help them. That's what attracted me to TA work but the problem with that, at least here in England, is they get a lot of menial tasks to do and if I got a mean teacher I could end up as the teachers dogsbody and not doing much of the stuff I love- the actual interacting, guiding and supporting the children.
Plus as a learning mentor you can progress with experience and even become a manager of other mentors. It just sounds exciting and as if it has more scope for opportunities. Okay so I may never want to be a manager but the fact that I could be if I wanted to be is enticing.
I wouldn't even need to do the degree to become a learning mentor, but the degree sounds attractive because it's one Saturday a month. 3 years (scary...) and done within work, so the tasks you get you are to do whilst you're working as a TA or LM already. So a big part of me right now- the ambitious, conscientious part that all but died when I was most ill, is crying out for the challenge.
And I might just heed its call.
Even though it's scary.
Even though it might take a chunk out of my savings.
Even though it will mean working hard for the next 3 years and pushing myself to the limit.
Because if I get that qualification, at least I am doing myself justice. I'm NOT too sick now to do it, I've just been too scared and too unsure of what I want. But now I'm having ideas again... this could well be the turning point.
I know it won't be easy. I'm not fully decided if I want to do it, I need to weigh things up carefully. But that part of me that regrets how much I wasted by not knowing what I wanted to do, by holding back because I was afraid... that part of me is wanting a challenge. It's just whether the rest of me is really up for it, or maybe it's just pie in the sky... I don't know.
I've emailed them anyway and asked if there's places available. I've talked it over with my Grandma, will do so also with my Mum.
I always felt like I hadn't done enough for myself academically, like I'd let myself down. Even though it's later on in my life, it's never 'too late'. My boyfriend has just gotten a degree at the age of 38! I'd be getting mine at 30 or 31 (depending if they have places available this year, or if I have to wait until next).
I feel like maybe I owe it to myself. I just hope if I do, I'm not taking on too much... BUT if it interests me and will help me in the career I've finally chosen... maybe I CAN rise to the challenge...
Recently I've been nurturing a desire to work with children, but I'd been considering a role such as TA. However, there isn't much chance for career progression with that, and being an optimistic person, I like to think that as I get a better handle on my health issues, I could progress up the career ladder. I don't want to be a teacher (though I could have been as I did get accepted a couple of years ago to do a PGCE- a years qualification for those who have a degree [mine is in rather a stupid, useless field]) but I would like to have some responsibilities and challenge. Maybe I am crazy, but I have let my health and my fears hold me back for so long... I'm starting to sense a rebellion coming- my inner spirit fighting back!
I saw on a job description of learning mentor a degree in learning, development and support that sounds interesting. I think being a learning mentor would be a great role for me. It's all about supporting children with learning needs OR about working with gifted and talented to push them... basically it's doing what I love, working with young children to help them. That's what attracted me to TA work but the problem with that, at least here in England, is they get a lot of menial tasks to do and if I got a mean teacher I could end up as the teachers dogsbody and not doing much of the stuff I love- the actual interacting, guiding and supporting the children.
Plus as a learning mentor you can progress with experience and even become a manager of other mentors. It just sounds exciting and as if it has more scope for opportunities. Okay so I may never want to be a manager but the fact that I could be if I wanted to be is enticing.
I wouldn't even need to do the degree to become a learning mentor, but the degree sounds attractive because it's one Saturday a month. 3 years (scary...) and done within work, so the tasks you get you are to do whilst you're working as a TA or LM already. So a big part of me right now- the ambitious, conscientious part that all but died when I was most ill, is crying out for the challenge.
And I might just heed its call.
Even though it's scary.
Even though it might take a chunk out of my savings.
Even though it will mean working hard for the next 3 years and pushing myself to the limit.
Because if I get that qualification, at least I am doing myself justice. I'm NOT too sick now to do it, I've just been too scared and too unsure of what I want. But now I'm having ideas again... this could well be the turning point.
I know it won't be easy. I'm not fully decided if I want to do it, I need to weigh things up carefully. But that part of me that regrets how much I wasted by not knowing what I wanted to do, by holding back because I was afraid... that part of me is wanting a challenge. It's just whether the rest of me is really up for it, or maybe it's just pie in the sky... I don't know.
I've emailed them anyway and asked if there's places available. I've talked it over with my Grandma, will do so also with my Mum.
I always felt like I hadn't done enough for myself academically, like I'd let myself down. Even though it's later on in my life, it's never 'too late'. My boyfriend has just gotten a degree at the age of 38! I'd be getting mine at 30 or 31 (depending if they have places available this year, or if I have to wait until next).
I feel like maybe I owe it to myself. I just hope if I do, I'm not taking on too much... BUT if it interests me and will help me in the career I've finally chosen... maybe I CAN rise to the challenge...
Tuesday, 30 March 2010
More thoughts.
I don't think I want to give up the hypnotherapy. I like helping people. So another possible option- if I had a full time job at a school- would be to take down my website and just distrubute business cards in the local area. That way, I wouldn't get so many enquiries and people to treat, but I'd still be doing it.
Trouble is, I love my website. It's so informative and I think it's that which helps people to decide to come see me.
Agh it's so hard to know what to do. I have to balance financial needs with personal desires and of course, my health. Tricky.
Maybe I'd be able to get by on part time hours- every afternoon or even every morning a week, with clients as an extra source of income and a source of enjoyment/pride in what I can do too. I enjoy making a difference to people who are suffering for whatever reason and I think I might feel sad if I could no longer do that...
I suppose all I can do is try it out and see what happens. There are other confusing factors to it, like when I move in with my boyfriend- where will I work from? And where will I advertise? So there's a lot of questions that are unanswered, and it is pretty scary, but I will just have to take it one step at a time. Find the job in a school first (the previous one I posted about was actually really low pay so wouldn't be worth the cost and energy in travelling) and then, depending on where it is and what the hours are, and where I'm living at the time, decide on what to do about the hypnosis.
Trouble is, I love my website. It's so informative and I think it's that which helps people to decide to come see me.
Agh it's so hard to know what to do. I have to balance financial needs with personal desires and of course, my health. Tricky.
Maybe I'd be able to get by on part time hours- every afternoon or even every morning a week, with clients as an extra source of income and a source of enjoyment/pride in what I can do too. I enjoy making a difference to people who are suffering for whatever reason and I think I might feel sad if I could no longer do that...
I suppose all I can do is try it out and see what happens. There are other confusing factors to it, like when I move in with my boyfriend- where will I work from? And where will I advertise? So there's a lot of questions that are unanswered, and it is pretty scary, but I will just have to take it one step at a time. Find the job in a school first (the previous one I posted about was actually really low pay so wouldn't be worth the cost and energy in travelling) and then, depending on where it is and what the hours are, and where I'm living at the time, decide on what to do about the hypnosis.
Monday, 29 March 2010
Living life to the full
I think I'm coming to terms with being ill now. I have my IST diagnosis and I am almost certain I have POTS after self testing numerous times (because there's always a margin of doubt that makes me think- what if it's 'gone away' and I go to for my appointment with the specialist and look like a total fool- but that's more my ingrained fear of not being taken seriously after all these years of not being taken seriously because no one could pin down what was wrong!). Despite the fact I've always suspected I was ill, I still find myself feeling sad now that I know I am- but I think I am coming to terms with it more now. I am looking for the positives in it- something I always (thankfully) tend to do when faced with adversity. I am thankful for the new friends I have made and continue to make. I am thankful for the opportunity to use my hobby of writing and my determination to reach out to and inspire others.
I do 'normal' things (for instance, this weekend I went to a party, to my Grandma's for Sunday lunch, then drove to my boyfriends for the afternoon and tea with him, before driving home to bed) but never feel entirely 'normal' because I am always dealing with symptoms to some degree. But- that's okay. I won't let those symptoms rob me of my life. I'll keep living it, and be kind to myself/my body by resting and taking it easy as much as I can- but I'm not going to turn down invites to things. Even when they scare me just a bit because I don't know if I'll be 'well enough'. Even if afterwards I ache and feel exhausted. Because those are just symptoms- and at least I am living.
My boyfriend keeps asking me to go cycling with him, and the very idea of this terrifies me. TERRIFIES me! Because, the last time I did it, before I knew I had tachycardia, I found it soooo difficult. I was so slow that a child approximately 7 years old on a little bmx overtook me. Every muscle in my body ached and my heart was going crazy. But you know what? I cycled FOURTEEN MILES. Even though it hurt like hell and even though I was slow as a snail. The reason? I refused to admit defeat. I refused to give in, so I just pedalled- through the pain, through the tachycardia, through the rain and the cold and the frustration. I hated every minute, I felt like shit afterwards, but I still did it.
I don't really want to get back on a bike, because it was so unpleasant. But a stubborn, fighting part of me is saying- try it just once more. A shorter, easier ride (I didn't even mention how bumpy 7 miles of this ride was!!) on a nice day in warm sunshine- you might just surprise yourself.
So, maybe I will. If I hate even that, maybe then I'll sell my bike. But if I can cycle 14 miles in the rain on stony hard ground and still come out the other end okay, then I can go on a short bike ride on a nice day and see if it isn't nicer. At least I'll be strengthening my calf muscles!
So, I guess what I am saying is yes, I may be ill but I have an attitude. Being ill may slow me down, but it won't stop me. I'll be like the snail, slow, lugging around my 'shell' (whatever symptoms I may be dealing with at the time) but still living my life- and in the meantime, perhaps I'll leave a pretty silver trail in my wake. I might not be able to 'blaze a trail' but I'm content to just live my life at the pace that feels right for me, and those that take the time to really notice will see my little silvery trail and smile.
Every little thing makes a difference. You might not feel like it does or think that it does, but it does.
So yes, I've come to terms with being ill because I've made my decision. An illness I may have, but I also have a LIFE and a determined, fun free spirit. So no matter what, I am living my life to the full.
Even if it does mean getting on a bike again one day... :/
I do 'normal' things (for instance, this weekend I went to a party, to my Grandma's for Sunday lunch, then drove to my boyfriends for the afternoon and tea with him, before driving home to bed) but never feel entirely 'normal' because I am always dealing with symptoms to some degree. But- that's okay. I won't let those symptoms rob me of my life. I'll keep living it, and be kind to myself/my body by resting and taking it easy as much as I can- but I'm not going to turn down invites to things. Even when they scare me just a bit because I don't know if I'll be 'well enough'. Even if afterwards I ache and feel exhausted. Because those are just symptoms- and at least I am living.
My boyfriend keeps asking me to go cycling with him, and the very idea of this terrifies me. TERRIFIES me! Because, the last time I did it, before I knew I had tachycardia, I found it soooo difficult. I was so slow that a child approximately 7 years old on a little bmx overtook me. Every muscle in my body ached and my heart was going crazy. But you know what? I cycled FOURTEEN MILES. Even though it hurt like hell and even though I was slow as a snail. The reason? I refused to admit defeat. I refused to give in, so I just pedalled- through the pain, through the tachycardia, through the rain and the cold and the frustration. I hated every minute, I felt like shit afterwards, but I still did it.
I don't really want to get back on a bike, because it was so unpleasant. But a stubborn, fighting part of me is saying- try it just once more. A shorter, easier ride (I didn't even mention how bumpy 7 miles of this ride was!!) on a nice day in warm sunshine- you might just surprise yourself.
So, maybe I will. If I hate even that, maybe then I'll sell my bike. But if I can cycle 14 miles in the rain on stony hard ground and still come out the other end okay, then I can go on a short bike ride on a nice day and see if it isn't nicer. At least I'll be strengthening my calf muscles!
So, I guess what I am saying is yes, I may be ill but I have an attitude. Being ill may slow me down, but it won't stop me. I'll be like the snail, slow, lugging around my 'shell' (whatever symptoms I may be dealing with at the time) but still living my life- and in the meantime, perhaps I'll leave a pretty silver trail in my wake. I might not be able to 'blaze a trail' but I'm content to just live my life at the pace that feels right for me, and those that take the time to really notice will see my little silvery trail and smile.
Every little thing makes a difference. You might not feel like it does or think that it does, but it does.
So yes, I've come to terms with being ill because I've made my decision. An illness I may have, but I also have a LIFE and a determined, fun free spirit. So no matter what, I am living my life to the full.
Even if it does mean getting on a bike again one day... :/
Saturday, 27 March 2010
Am excited!
So I looked on the city council website just to see what kind of jobs were available and the only TA job was part time, 2-3 days a week! haha! So my Mum was wrong. Okay so these sorts of jobs might be rare but it just shows, there is a chance!
I considered applying for it, but it's temporary (June until March) and as I'm going to Peru for 3 weeks in November, I thought it'd be highly unlikely they'd consider me. Plus I did want to take this Summer OFF because I've been studying non stop since school. I bookmarked it anyway, as something to think about. It's just given me hope that I might just be able to get the kind of job I want (part time)!
I considered applying for it, but it's temporary (June until March) and as I'm going to Peru for 3 weeks in November, I thought it'd be highly unlikely they'd consider me. Plus I did want to take this Summer OFF because I've been studying non stop since school. I bookmarked it anyway, as something to think about. It's just given me hope that I might just be able to get the kind of job I want (part time)!
Decisions, decisions
I have a lot to think about these next few months. It's an exciting time, the decisions won't be easy to make, but I don't feel stressed or afraid about them... which is a really good thing! Ordinarily I hate change and get very freaked out/anxious. Not this time- least not yet anyway!
For the past 5 years I've worked as a hypnotherapist. It's only ever been part time, because I never generated enough clients to do it full time hours. But, part time is what I've been able to manage. I've enjoyed it immensly. I've helped people and I've managed to earn money, though not enough to move out of my parents and be independent.
My boyfriend would like me to move in with him one day- it's not something that's imminent because we're both being slow and steady about it, which is good (any faster and the change would seem overwhelming and I'd freak out!) but it means I'll have to make a lot of changes. I won't be able to just be a hypnotherapist then- I'll need to earn more money.
Luckily, one of my passions is also working with children and I'm nearing completion of a childcare diploma that would allow me to do that. So one of my ideas was working 3 days a week with children and 2 days as a hypnotherapist. That'd be ideal... but- my Mum, who has worked in education the past 22+ years, pointed out that there's really no jobs for teaching assistants (what I'd like to be) that are just for 3 days. It's either full time, every morning, or every afternoon.
If I was working every afternoon, I could see one client per morning, so that's an option.
However, another thing crossing my mind is for me to stop being a hypnotherapist and focus on full time work. I've never done it; I'd like to try. Full time school hours as a TA I think I could manage, so long as I could go home and rest afterwards (my original plan was full time TA, see clients in the evening and holidays, but since finding out I really DO have a chronic illness and am NOT just 'unfit' or 'tired' I have realised this would be too much for me).
I'd really like to work in a school, I just don't know what my best option would be... whether to go for it full time and give up the hypnotherapy... or whether to try and do both somehow. It's not an easy decision.
I feel almost like if I tried to do both, I might end up doing neither one as well as I could if I was just doing one. However, just doing hypnotherapy is not a viable financial option. So that leaves just doing the TA work. If I did that, I wouldn't have any 'cases' to worry about (there are times when helping other people with their problems can be stressful and that's when I'm JUST doing that, nothing else!), all my free time would be mine to spend however I choose.
It seems like an attractive option... but then I think I might miss the hypnotherapy. But I'm not sure. I've loved doing it these past 5 years and it's built my confidence because I've been able to do something during the time I wasn't well enough to go out and get a 'proper' job. But it can be draining. I don't know if, realistically, I want to do both when it might be detrimental to ME. I want to look after myself. Live my life to the full, but that means allowing time to relax and have fun too. If I try and do everything, I won't have time or energy left for MYSELF and the things I want to do.
So I'm actually considering giving up the hypnotherapy in the future. Even if I'd miss aspects of it. Because sometimes, to gain something, you have to give up something else.
Another thing I'd really like to do is write again. Properly, not just a bit of blogging here and there- but a book. If I worked as a TA to bring in the necessary income towards bills, holidays and fun, I could write in the evenings and/or at weekends and during the holidays. It might never come to anything, but at least then I've tried.
I just don't know if I'm ready to give up something I've enjoyed doing for 5 years, something that's so worthwhile because it helps others and makes me feel good because I've done so.
But if I want to have a balanced life in which I have time for me, to do the things I enjoy doing- like socialising, dancing and holidays, then I might have to.
I don't need to decide yet anyway. It will also depend on what jobs are available. If there's a perfect little part time TA job I could take that and have a go at doing both that and hypnotherapy, see how it goes.* But then equally, if there's a perfect full time job at a good school or nursery, I wouldn't want to miss out on that just for the sake of hanging on to something that it might well be time to let go of...
*The trouble is, when I imagine doing both... I get the feeling that the hypnotherapy would be a hindrance to my spare time that I'd like to have to relax, meditate, and take care of myself by doing things that make me feel good!
For some reason, since the idea occurred to me, I'm leaning more towards letting it go... perhaps I sense that it's time to start focusing on looking after ME instead of looking after others...
I'll just have to put my trust in the universe to guide me the right way. I'll know what to do when the time comes. I trust that, and even though it might not be easy, I trust it'll work out for the best.
For the past 5 years I've worked as a hypnotherapist. It's only ever been part time, because I never generated enough clients to do it full time hours. But, part time is what I've been able to manage. I've enjoyed it immensly. I've helped people and I've managed to earn money, though not enough to move out of my parents and be independent.
My boyfriend would like me to move in with him one day- it's not something that's imminent because we're both being slow and steady about it, which is good (any faster and the change would seem overwhelming and I'd freak out!) but it means I'll have to make a lot of changes. I won't be able to just be a hypnotherapist then- I'll need to earn more money.
Luckily, one of my passions is also working with children and I'm nearing completion of a childcare diploma that would allow me to do that. So one of my ideas was working 3 days a week with children and 2 days as a hypnotherapist. That'd be ideal... but- my Mum, who has worked in education the past 22+ years, pointed out that there's really no jobs for teaching assistants (what I'd like to be) that are just for 3 days. It's either full time, every morning, or every afternoon.
If I was working every afternoon, I could see one client per morning, so that's an option.
However, another thing crossing my mind is for me to stop being a hypnotherapist and focus on full time work. I've never done it; I'd like to try. Full time school hours as a TA I think I could manage, so long as I could go home and rest afterwards (my original plan was full time TA, see clients in the evening and holidays, but since finding out I really DO have a chronic illness and am NOT just 'unfit' or 'tired' I have realised this would be too much for me).
I'd really like to work in a school, I just don't know what my best option would be... whether to go for it full time and give up the hypnotherapy... or whether to try and do both somehow. It's not an easy decision.
I feel almost like if I tried to do both, I might end up doing neither one as well as I could if I was just doing one. However, just doing hypnotherapy is not a viable financial option. So that leaves just doing the TA work. If I did that, I wouldn't have any 'cases' to worry about (there are times when helping other people with their problems can be stressful and that's when I'm JUST doing that, nothing else!), all my free time would be mine to spend however I choose.
It seems like an attractive option... but then I think I might miss the hypnotherapy. But I'm not sure. I've loved doing it these past 5 years and it's built my confidence because I've been able to do something during the time I wasn't well enough to go out and get a 'proper' job. But it can be draining. I don't know if, realistically, I want to do both when it might be detrimental to ME. I want to look after myself. Live my life to the full, but that means allowing time to relax and have fun too. If I try and do everything, I won't have time or energy left for MYSELF and the things I want to do.
So I'm actually considering giving up the hypnotherapy in the future. Even if I'd miss aspects of it. Because sometimes, to gain something, you have to give up something else.
Another thing I'd really like to do is write again. Properly, not just a bit of blogging here and there- but a book. If I worked as a TA to bring in the necessary income towards bills, holidays and fun, I could write in the evenings and/or at weekends and during the holidays. It might never come to anything, but at least then I've tried.
I just don't know if I'm ready to give up something I've enjoyed doing for 5 years, something that's so worthwhile because it helps others and makes me feel good because I've done so.
But if I want to have a balanced life in which I have time for me, to do the things I enjoy doing- like socialising, dancing and holidays, then I might have to.
I don't need to decide yet anyway. It will also depend on what jobs are available. If there's a perfect little part time TA job I could take that and have a go at doing both that and hypnotherapy, see how it goes.* But then equally, if there's a perfect full time job at a good school or nursery, I wouldn't want to miss out on that just for the sake of hanging on to something that it might well be time to let go of...
*The trouble is, when I imagine doing both... I get the feeling that the hypnotherapy would be a hindrance to my spare time that I'd like to have to relax, meditate, and take care of myself by doing things that make me feel good!
For some reason, since the idea occurred to me, I'm leaning more towards letting it go... perhaps I sense that it's time to start focusing on looking after ME instead of looking after others...
I'll just have to put my trust in the universe to guide me the right way. I'll know what to do when the time comes. I trust that, and even though it might not be easy, I trust it'll work out for the best.
Thursday, 25 March 2010
Amusing brain foggy moments...
Because you gotta laugh!
Um... would you be amused if I told you that I had two amusing brain foggy moments to write about but a split second after deciding to do this, one of them went completely out of my mind?? :/
Okay so the first was at school whilst helping during a guided reading task, we got to a page where there was a graph of children's favourite ice creams. I was asking the children with me doing the task what their favourite flavours were, and adding the votes on to the total. In so doing, I somehow managed to add 2 to 7 and come up with 8. When a child questioned me I still thought my calculation correct and, thinking she had misunderstood the graph as she is a bright child, I pointed to the graph and said 'Look it goes 7 at this point, so then add 1 vote for James and then it goes to 8, then add 1 vote for me..." as I realise this does not work out to 8 at all, she says "Yes that's what I mean, 7 + 2 makes 9!" At which point I didn't really know what to say so I just gave her a sideways hug and said "Yes you're right, I obviously can't add up anymore, hahaha!"
Oh, and the second one has come back to me tonight. I was at college last night (oh my goodness NO I meant to say 'the second one has come back to me NOW lol!!!)- anyways. The tutor was asking us what help would be available for mums who've just had their babies. There were only two of us who'd turned up to class and my class-mate was being VERY quiet despite the fact she's had children so knew these answers! So I was having to provide them all and I was doing well but running out of ideas. You know when you're racking your brains thinking and then suddenly it's like a light bulb goes on and you think YES! I got it! ?
Well, that happened to me- so I confidently blurted out "ANTE NATAL!" thinking now why didn't I think of THAT one sooner eh? Go me, I'm really on the ball tonight!
Leaving my tutor to point out that this really would not be much use to someone who's already given birth to their baby.
Oh dear.
In my defence, I had just been to the toilet, so I'll blame the standing up and the peeing for bringing on that. Incidentally, what a good job I'm not a male with POTS because I recently discovered that emptying your bladder makes your blood pressure temporarily lower (oh that's jolly good, mine must be going lower many many times a day then!). At least we ladies are sitting down for that eh!
Brain fog can be amusing at times, but I don't half feel dippy thanks to it! Remember Jade Goody's Big Brother 'Jadeisms'? It's like such things are beginning to take over my life!
I wish I could find that philosophy essay I scored near top marks on about solipsism. I wouldn't be able to understand it now, (I can't even really remember what solipsism IS!) but at least I could read it and think- wow. Once I was very, very clever!
Um... would you be amused if I told you that I had two amusing brain foggy moments to write about but a split second after deciding to do this, one of them went completely out of my mind?? :/
Okay so the first was at school whilst helping during a guided reading task, we got to a page where there was a graph of children's favourite ice creams. I was asking the children with me doing the task what their favourite flavours were, and adding the votes on to the total. In so doing, I somehow managed to add 2 to 7 and come up with 8. When a child questioned me I still thought my calculation correct and, thinking she had misunderstood the graph as she is a bright child, I pointed to the graph and said 'Look it goes 7 at this point, so then add 1 vote for James and then it goes to 8, then add 1 vote for me..." as I realise this does not work out to 8 at all, she says "Yes that's what I mean, 7 + 2 makes 9!" At which point I didn't really know what to say so I just gave her a sideways hug and said "Yes you're right, I obviously can't add up anymore, hahaha!"
Oh, and the second one has come back to me tonight. I was at college last night (oh my goodness NO I meant to say 'the second one has come back to me NOW lol!!!)- anyways. The tutor was asking us what help would be available for mums who've just had their babies. There were only two of us who'd turned up to class and my class-mate was being VERY quiet despite the fact she's had children so knew these answers! So I was having to provide them all and I was doing well but running out of ideas. You know when you're racking your brains thinking and then suddenly it's like a light bulb goes on and you think YES! I got it! ?
Well, that happened to me- so I confidently blurted out "ANTE NATAL!" thinking now why didn't I think of THAT one sooner eh? Go me, I'm really on the ball tonight!
Leaving my tutor to point out that this really would not be much use to someone who's already given birth to their baby.
Oh dear.
In my defence, I had just been to the toilet, so I'll blame the standing up and the peeing for bringing on that. Incidentally, what a good job I'm not a male with POTS because I recently discovered that emptying your bladder makes your blood pressure temporarily lower (oh that's jolly good, mine must be going lower many many times a day then!). At least we ladies are sitting down for that eh!
Brain fog can be amusing at times, but I don't half feel dippy thanks to it! Remember Jade Goody's Big Brother 'Jadeisms'? It's like such things are beginning to take over my life!
I wish I could find that philosophy essay I scored near top marks on about solipsism. I wouldn't be able to understand it now, (I can't even really remember what solipsism IS!) but at least I could read it and think- wow. Once I was very, very clever!
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